(J. Ellismay provides permission for this first article to be published or
with the authors full consent in the hopes that it will stop
unethical breeders and those who breed only for money and not for the
betterment of the breed. )
I don't remember much from the place I was born. It was cramped and dark,
and we were never played with by the humans. I remember Mom and her soft
fur, but she was often sick, and very thin. She had hardly any milk for me and
my brothers and sisters. I remember many of them dying, and I missed them so.
I do remember the day I was taken from Mom. I was so sad and scared, my
milk teeth had only just come in, and I really should have been with Mom
still, but she was so sick, and the Humans kept saying that they wanted
money and were sick of the "mess" that me and my sister made. So we were
crated up and taken to a strange place. Just the two of us. We huddled
together and were scared, still no human hands came to pet or love us.
So many sights and sounds, and smells! We are in a store where there are
many different animals! Some that squawk! some that meow! Some that
Peep! My sister and I are jammed into a small cage, I hear other puppies
here. I see humans look at me, I like the 'little humans', the kids. they look
so sweet, and fun, like they would play with me!
All day we stay in the small cage, sometimes mean people will hit the glass
and frighten us, every once in a while we are taken out to be held or shown
to humans. Some are gentle, some hurt us, we always hear "Aw they are So
cute! I want one!" but we never get to go with any.
My sister died last night, when the store was dark. I lay my head on her soft
fur and felt the life leave her small thin body. I had heard them say she was
sick, and that I should be sold at a "discount price" so that I would quickly
leave the store. I think my soft whine was the only one that mourned for her
as her body was taken out of the cage in the morning and dumped.
Today, a family came and bought me! Oh happy day! They are a nice family,
they really, really wanted me! They had bought a dish and food and the little
girl held me so tenderly in her arms. I love her so much! The mom and dad
say what a sweet and good puppy I am! I am named Angel. I love to lick my
The family takes such good care of me, they are loving and tender and
sweet. They gently teach me right and wrong, give me good food, and lots
of love! I want only to please these wonderful people! I love the little girl
and I enjoy running and playing with her.
Today I went to the veterinarian. it was a strange place and I was frightened.
I got some shots, but my best friend the little girl held me softly and said it
would be OK. So I relaxed. The Vet must have said sad words to my beloved
family, because they looked awfully sad. I heard Severe hip dysplacia, and
something about my heart... I heard the vet say something about, back yard
breeders and my parents not being tested. I know not what any of that
means, just that it hurts me to see my family so sad. But they still love me,
and I still love them very much!
I am 6 months old now. Where most other puppies are robust and rowdy, it
hurts me terribly just to move. The pain never lets up. It hurts to run and play
with my beloved little girl, and I find it hard to breath. I keep trying my best
to be the strong pup I know I am supposed to be, but it is so hard. It breaks
my heart to see the little girl so sad, and to hear the Mom and Dad talk
about "it might now be the time". Several times I have went to that
veterinarians place, and the news is never good. Always talk about
Congenital Problems. I just want to feel the warm sunshine and run, and
play and nuzzle with my family.
Last night was the worst, Pain has been my constant companion now, it
hurts even to get up and get a drink. I try to get up but can only whine in
pain. I am taken in the car one last time. Everyone is so sad, and I don't
know why. Have I been bad? I try to be good and loving, what have I
done wrong? Oh if only this pain would be gone! If only I could soothe
the tears of the little girl. I reach out my muzzle to lick her hand, but can
only whine in pain.
The veterinarians table is so cold. I am so frightened. The humans all
hug and love me, they cry into my soft fur. I can feel their love and
sadness. I manage to lick softly their hands. Even the vet doesn't seem
so scary today. he is gentle and I sense some kind of relief for my pain.
The little girl holds me softly and I thank her, for giving me all her love.
I feel a soft pinch in my foreleg. The pain is beginning to lift, I am
beginning to feel a peace descend upon me. I can now softly lick her
hand. My vision is becoming dreamlike now, and I see my Mother and
my brothers and sisters, in a far off green place. They tell me there is no
pain there, only peace and happiness. I tell the family, good-bye in the
only way I know how, a soft wag of my tail and a nuzzle of my nose. I
had hoped to spend many, many moons with them, but it was not meant
'to be. "You see," said the veterinarian, "Pet shop puppies do not come
from ethical breeders."
The pain ends now, and I know it will be many years until I see my
beloved family again. If only things could have been different.